We’re closing in toward the end of the first quarter of the year.
Seriously? Where has time gone?
I’m looking back at my last post truly wondering. But here we are. Smack in the middle of Lent. Still looking back at the remnants of a 1st Birthday party held in early February that still make their presence known in our dining room. I’m right in the middle of my busy time at work. And JP is just busy–into everything.
And what I’m craving is slow.
I’ve been paying attention to my pace. I’m not as in shape as I’d like to be so when I walk fast, I’m short of breath. But also when I walk fast, my mind is also tracking at that same pace. When I slow down my walk, I’m able to catch my breath, pay more attention to it and I’m more aware of my surroundings. The flowers starting to bud. The shape of the clouds.
We’ve had a few conversations lately about being connected and what that really means. To be honest, many of my connections are online and through the apps on my phone. But I want to be most connected with my people–the ones who live in my house and I see every single day. I don’t want to be distracted by an Instagram post and miss staring into my daughter’s blue eyes.
So I’ve cleaned up my phone. Deleted some apps. Installed a few others that I hope to be my primary focus. Found that some of my goals and Lenten observances were too far reaching or ill-willed in their motives so I’m adjusting. And giving myself grace in that adjustment.
I want to pay attention. I want to be focused on others words and stories. I want to leave space for my soul and heart to breathe, to not feel overwhelmed and to be connected with things and people that matter and willing to walk away from that that brings stress and overwhelm and comparison.
I want to invite people into our home for a meal again. Sit across the table at coffee and be able to give people a warm hug rather than scroll, scroll, scroll on my phone.
I’ve got some ideas on how to put this into practice but I’d love to hear yours.
And don’t be surprised if things are a little quieter on the scrolling place but you’re hearing more from me here.